A TRANSGENDER LOVE STORY
translation in progress
Going to her tiny bathroom for the first time, opening the nondescript brown plastic bag from Blackpool and taking out the tightly scrunched up PVC dress, putting it on the back of the toilet, then the bra, the G-string, the wig, the makeup on the vanity, getting myself undressed: out of the jeans, off with the sweatshirt, and then into the dress, pulling it up over the curve of my butt – a strange feeling. The realization of dreams is worse than the dreams themselves. Overcome with extreme fear, a tightening in my chest, mingling with the hope of total liberation. By now I have lost all sense of truth or reality, I have arrived at the land of dreams, other laws apply here. I don`t exist as Steve, as a man, anymore, I am racing towards the realization of my perfect “self”.
It starts with the breaking of the waves and summer hits in an open air disco along the harbor. Girls meets girl. Or boy? A ménage a trois for two people, plus a persona who elbows her way in. The star photographer Nina, who is in love with lust, the DJ Steve, who has a dark secret and falls for Nina, the black-haired diva Cindy – become entangled in a relationship.
Karin Rick, master of erotic tension, confronts us again in this new novel with the main themes of her writing. Sexual identity – as well as desire – is something fluid, that cannot be solidified into fixed categories, definitions or boundaries, and only stays thrilling in constant flux.